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On My Own

I’ve always kept my problems to myself even in times when I can’t solve them on my own. I’ve always had trouble asking for help. I don’t want to bother anyone or seem clingy and dependent. But this weekend, I knew that sickly feverish me won’t be able to finish everything for Monday. So for the first time, knowing that it’s the right thing though it is out of my character, I asked for help from a friend. It felt nice to know that someone was  actually willing to help me and so I let myself worry less.

But suddenly, she backed out way near the deadline. I was panicking again and I actually cried. I just had too much stress from my sickness, my workload, my lack of money and my problems at home. But then another friend offered to help, I was doubtful if I should because the first experience might have been a warning but then I was desperate so I said yes.

Of course, it ended the same way.

Bottom line is the only person you can count on is yourself. Don’t look for anyone else. Do it yourself and don’t look for any options.